late night
feeling fragmented once again. wish it wasn't too late for tv or something. or even a video [thanks to mizbloo I'm temporarily hooked up]. the only videos I own are wallace and gromit [all very good, but I just watched them all to celebrate the borrowed vcr], some old episode of ellen [the final one?], and a tape of moley cavorting at fort fun [back when she really knew how to cavort].

so I'm thinking no tv. watching moley cavort might be beyond me. tho it's mighty tempting. been drawing incessantly, but none of it is in digital form yet. my next thing is doodling on post-its. the ultimate in removeable art.
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indelible
speaking of which, spent yesterday surrounded by people getting tattoos. first it was mizstpl from the big city getting some touch up work done. of course, I thought the artist at black and blue tattoo was cool cuz she thought "out loud" with paper and pencil. then mizbloo with her friends, getting indelible markings in the comfort of their own home.
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adrift
my feeling of having a grip crumbled today. in a coupla hours it will be three weeks. and tonight I will finish her second candle. more of a fluke than intentional timing. sad that all her blood washed out of my blankets. wanted to hold on to anything having to do with her. wanting to make a card to send out, but am unable to take on anything much right now. just glad to be busy.

just feels like she's GONE. no sweet lovely pooch, and, no, the memories are not enough. neither are all the photos. tho they sometimes help, it's all just a poor substitute.

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