What I Am
- Edie Brickell & New Bohemians

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean

Philosophy is the talk on a cereal box
Religion is the smile on a dog

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean

Choke me in the shallow water
Before I get too deep

What I am is what I am are you what you are or what?

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean

Philosophy is a walk on slippery rocks
Religion is a light in the fog

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean

Choke me in the shallow water
Before I get to deep

What I am is what I am are you what you are or what?

Don't let me get too deep
Don't let me get too deep...

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:: Wednesday, May 25, 2005 ::

305.90 Caffeine Intoxication
[or, why i am without personality without coffee]

A. Recent consumption of caffeine, usually in excess of 250 mg (e.g., more than 2-3 cups of brewed coffee).

B. Five (or more) of the following signs, developing during, or shortly after, caffeine use:
1) restlessness
2) nervousness
3) excitement
4) insomnia
5) flushed face
6) diuresis
7) gastrointestinal disturbance
8) muscle twitching
9) rambling flow of thought and speech
10) tachycardia or cardiac arrhythmia
11) periods of inexhaustibility
12) psychomotor agitation

C. The symptoms in Criterion B cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. The symptoms are not due to a general medical condition and are not better accounted for by another mental disorder (e.g., an Anxiety Disorder).
[thanks, doc]

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:: Friday, May 20, 2005 ::

random friday thoughts
here's a quote i came across while trolling around on friendster...
Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better, To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.

- King Whitney Jr.
and lookie...homey. someday i will fear no cortland. but i can still claim it as my epicenter and my homey despite the discomfort sadness and loss.

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:: Wednesday, May 18, 2005 ::

baby dyas-cray
lil baby girl slipped right out on 5/18 at about 1:35pm -- guess she's healthy and the moms are happy! yay! hoping to see her tonight (5/19).

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:: Friday, May 13, 2005 ::

friday friday
thank dog for friday the thirteenth...it's been a long strange week, and we're all letting off a little steam at werk (beers!). soon it's (more) beer, tamales, and clowns (that's my friend jenij with the pursed lips). and tho i fear clowns, i'm looking forward to it. haven't been able to write much of substance, thus the poems. perhaps next week will bring back some coherence in my life, but i doubt it.

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:: Thursday, May 12, 2005 ::

why to how
this from miz kc of kc herself... seemed fitting somehow. and love that i have a real poem of hers. especially since i have about 100 poems she's sent me from other folks.

(at least 1 poem a day for april for three years = at least 100 poems. no wonder i'm overwhelmed by it every year!)
march
by kathy couch

in the last cold sky of this
time?
stillness

except the two writhing pines,
wrestling with something
we are spared

and the band of cars
constantly forward
so that this time seems like all others
(a certainty comes: there must be times of rest if forward
is to be forward)

then the synchronized swarm of pigeons
swooping and weaving some tangle
everyday

soon i will know why
and can move on
to how

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:: Tuesday, May 10, 2005 ::

potty mouth: shit and shit. aah. just adjusting and laughing (and crying) at myself throughout it all...

maths 400K:1

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:: Friday, May 06, 2005 ::

weak week
damn. i'm still hungry after a big greasy lunch of veggie chow fun -- with tofu. i almost lost my nerve when hacker came through with half a burger from the carribean joint around the corner...

but no, i'm still hungry, and contemplating the different ways you can emphasize short sentences. well, at least it's friday.
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wordy
[definition thanks to m-w.com]

Main Entry: ¹dif�fuse
Pronunciation: di-'fy�s
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English, from Latin diffusus, past participle of diffundere to spread out, from dis- + fundere to pour -- more at FOUND
1 : being at once verbose and ill-organized
2 : not concentrated or localized [diffuse sclerosis]
synonym see WORDY
- dif�fuse�ly adverb
- dif�fuse�ness noun

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:: Thursday, May 05, 2005 ::

five five five
day five of no meat: and what is up with serving sizes? i'm consistently eating about 6-8 times more than the recommended "serving" -- and still hungry all the time!
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happy happy cinco de mayo: too bad that it becomes such a drunken brawl out and about, but here's to menudo (not the band).
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five-by-five: oy. here's to nerdiness all around...(btw i'm: Mid-Level Nerd. Wow, it takes a lot of hard nerdy practice to reach this level.)

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:: Wednesday, May 04, 2005 ::

meatless wonder
so it's day FOUR of no meat for me -- solidarity with miz ky, who's doing the more difficult task of quitting cigs. (and with jy who's avoiding fried stuff for the cause). i have to admit that it's been hard. i need to remember how to cook without meat, and it doesn't help that all i know how to eat/cook these days is meat (my fab new grill is in the garage for now). and how do vegetarians stay full? i've been carrying around powerbars and fruit rollups just to keep from passing out, and i've spent and arm and a leg (ha ha) on veggie protein sources. didja know that ONE tofu pup is a serving? in what anorexic world is that true?

but it's been instructive. suddenly menus only have two or three options for me, if that. and reading ingredient labels is a bit of an astonishing experience.

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ebay recycles: a good resource if you were looking for what to do with your antiquated computer and cell phone equipment...

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